Oh hun. Big hugs. You are having such a difficult time. It is not going to be easy to bf without your DH's support. But it's also not going to be easy living with regret, if you really want to be bfing and you don't give it a try. If bfing is what you really want to do (and it seems from your posts that it is), then I would try and get your DH to understand how much this means to you.

I know that it is very difficult to explain yourself rationally when you are tired and emotional. So maybe it would help to write all your reasons down (we can help you with some ideas), and then show that to your DH. Explain to him that to you it IS broke, and that not bfing is going to upset you more than trying again. You could also ask him if he would take to a LC or the ABA help line with you, to try and get some more information on what is involved and how much this means to you.

Some reasons you could put on your list:
- cheaper (no need to buy formula)
- takes less time once established (no need to wash bottles, mix up formula etc)
- easier to go out (no need to take bottles, formula, worry about finding somewhere to warm bottle) etc
- studies show that mums (and dads) get more sleep when babies are bf (as feeding takes less time and it is easier to fall asleep during/after thanks to the "sleepy" hormones released)
- it puts you at a lower risk of breast cancer and osteoporosis
- it gives you and bub higher immunity so neither of you get sick as often (Which is bound to make life easier for you and your DH and to make you happier)
- there are lots of other benefits to bub including receiving stem cells, jaw development which helps with speech later on, higher iron levels, a much lower risk of any gastro bugs, improved eyesight etc etc.
- you really want to

And that's just for starters .

GL hun, I hope he is able to understand and support you in this. Please let us know if there is anything we can do to help you.