Very much a silver lining I know I am not here posting my support but you know you are in my thoughts often. I too worry about the BF of this next baby but we can only do the best we can with the hand we have been given. Your path is to be an inspiration to those who have difficulties BF and yet can see with perseverance you can achieve so much. You are continuing to do a fantastic job and even though it is a difficult path, it is for such a short time overall in the life you will share with this little man (not that it is any easier to go anywhere right now though ). Look how far you have come with DS1!!! You can get through this - and then in your life journey you can continue to inspire those around you with your strength, courage and persistence in the face of adversity. I am so proud of you - even if I rarely get to tell you this time around