I heard this song on the radio & it's how I'm trying to think of both of my c/s. Pretty lame, it's Miley Cyrus from Hannah Montana, but I think it fits...

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on
Especially this part - "Ain't about how fast I get there, Ain't about what's waiting on the other side, It's the climb". For me & maybe you guys as well, I'm trying to think of it this way. What was waiting on the other side for me was another c/s, but the climb there was pretty awesome. I went from being terrified of labour & saying if I had to do it again I would have only one child, to attempting my VBAC. I went from passive with the Drs in my first pregnancy to fighting for my rights to try again. I changed as a person in aiming for my VBAC. I am much stronger now regardless of what the outcome of my attempt was.