Not sure how much help I am, probably none, but I feel your pain. I have had to come to terms with that too this pregnancy. My focus wasn't particularly on the C section itself, but the possibility of separation and not having immediate skin to skin etc.. I have just been asking questions each time I go to the hospital and trying to focus on the positives. It is scary to think about the birth if your last birth was traumatic. I think *Belle* has given some really good advice.