Huge hugs hun. I sort of know how you feel, having been told that I would have to have an elective c/s with my second DS. I had a natural birth with my first DS (but unfortunately he came way too early) and wanted a natural one the second time around. After my first pg they had to cut out a huge fibroid and that really weakened my uterus. So they gave me little choice but to have the elective c/s. I did struggle with it for a long time (I didn't have the immediate skin to skin contact until I was in recovery when they put DS on my chest naked) but all along I kept thinking I just want a baby that is healthy and well earthside.
GL hun, I hope you can come to peace with the c/s.