Hugs hun you know my opinion. You have made a very brave, couragus and sensible choice.

You went through so much heartbreak of not only loosing your precious baby girl, but you were rushed to theatre put to sleep and your poor DF left outside with no idea what was going on, the joys of birth was taken away from you due to a massive emeregency and NO ONE has the right to say anything to you or judge you.

Of course you want the safest most planned option out, you are going to be highly emotional as it is you want a supportive team around you to guide you every step of the way, and knowing when and how your baby will be born is the way to do this.

Hugs hun always here for you xoxo