Oh Sirenz I think you are brave & wonderful for thinking all of this through before hand d& acknowledging what you are facing. I can't imagine, it must be very frightening.

I don't think for a second that you are 'taking the easy way out'. Don't ever let anyone make you think that. For one thing, there is no easy way out, but mostly, you are putting yours & your babies health first, and that is admirable & sensible.

I hope the experience does go well for you, or at least as well as it can. Surround yourself with supportive people & stay away from anyone who will make you feel lousy. It sounds like your DH is a great support, that's excellent.