omg, I've sooooo been there too and I'm sure there are others with very similar experiences. There have been times where I have seriously considered just letting my baby boy cry til he tired himself out while I sleep in the other bedroom!!! ..After a couple minutes I come to my senses and get the mommy guilt "How could I!"....but I think the worst I've felt is when bub woke up in the night for a feed and we still had bad attachment and I lost all control and screamed and it scared the bejeezus out of him and stunned him so much he didn't want to try to feed for a while after... I just give thanks that tomorrow is a new day and they forgive and forget much easier than we mummies do ourselves. Just a hint of that sweet smile is enough to melt any bad feelings away.