I m going to suggest something and Its your life if you want to listen then listen if you dont then its your call.

Why are you searching everywhere for love. Searching in a partner, Searching in a child, wanting to be loved and felt appreciated would by my answer. Sorry for my directness but I read all of your posts and I read someone crying for affection and attention.

I was single after seperating with my Husband of 10 years. I didnt know who I was as a single person so I jumped straight into another relationship....... HUGE error..... But I learnt something very quickly.........

You must love yourself completely and without any reservation before you can ever give yourself fully to another person, including a child.

My suggestion to you would be, firstly you are only 25. There are plenty of women on here in there late 30s and early 40s..... I m one of them.... who are now pregnant or TTC. You say you have a casual Job and a course placement. Focus on them, focus on you. Strengthen yourself. Find your own place, have your own home. Start your own life. Stop searching for someone elses affection and start looking inside yourself and finding it from within.

Now you can read this post and think about it or you can read it and get cranky and peeved at me. Like I said...... Its your life.... Its your call.