Em - oh hun, huge to you. Been there, done that and lost it with friends myself. IMO unless people have personally experienced difficulty in ttc, they have absolutely no idea. There are so many out there who manage to get pg at the drop of a hat and have totally no clue about how soul destroying it can be, struggling to be able to achieve one of the most fundamental reasons we are here. There has been many a time where I have just wanted to tell others to f**k off when they say 'oh it'll happen when the time is right'. How dare they be so dismissive of something so huge to us. I know that you have been seeing a herbalist and I agree with the others that have mentioned finding someone to talk to about things. Personally, I have really struggled with this in the past year or so and I think getting myself so wound up about it really really didn't help. I've raved to you about my NP, she is like a therapist and has helped me find a whole new perspective on ttc. Don't know yet if the new attitude has had an effect on that much wanted BFP but it certainly has helped me feel a lot more accepting of my situation and left me feeling WAY less strung out. In my rambling, I am trying to say how much it has helped me talking about my feelings in a very long winded way . Anyway hun, feel free to PM me any time if you just need a big vent cos trust me, it really really does help.