Hey Jelly thnaks so much for your cmments! I have actually bought that book (along with 100 others!! haha) and am finding the advice excellent, am slowly cleaning up my health so hopefully that will help! (used to be a huge caffeine and alcohol drinker and have cut right down)

Sara - thanks, I'll PM you soon to find out more. am feeling much better this week... i always get bad depression just before AF, so am feeling more positive now!

Mel I agree with you.... a lot of people don't understand the feelings that go with long term TTC and how it effects you. Am trying to look more on teh bright side, this is making me a lot stronger and testing my patience (am a very impatient and have to have everything now type of person). I'm going to find someone to talk to further about all of this i think. It is great that you are relaxing more about things, your NP has certainly helped you.

Thanks again everyone for commenting, I really appreciate you all and belly belly.