Well I have just gotten back from my first group personal training session (my free intro one) and OMG, it was a killer and one point I was sure I was going to vomitt and kill over. However I pushed on and while I am not sure I can say I enjoyed myself, I can say that I can see that it is going to work. This is the usually the point where I go, thanks for the free session, it is all too hard and I will just go back to what I was doing last time (ie nothing) HOWEVER, being that 2009 is MY year, I am just filling in and signing the paper work, and I will be going back on Weds morning for session number 2, I am committing myself to this, and it is going to cost me a lot of $$$ to do, but do you know what I have realised- I AM WORTH, I DO DESERVE IT & I CAN DO IT- so go me!!

I was very proud of myself over the weekend, had a lot of celebrations on for my birthday, and while I allowed myself a few treats I didnt go over board like I usually do, was very controlled, and I didnt feel like I was missing out- I guess I felt empowered.

One thing that did get me a little upset is that we went to my Mum and Dad's for dinner, and I had specifically requested no Bday cake, which they did not listen to and bought anyway- I was disapointed that they didn't honour my request and support me- however, I did realise I had the power, to say no, I had 1 tiny sliver, cut of the icing and then had no more.

So a question, are there any people who intentionally or not sabotage your weight loss?