I am not expecting much of a loss either this week because AF has arrived today but I don't really care about my weight right now - just very happy that AF is back of it's own accord after many many years on BCP!

I have a confession to make girls.......I broke and had a cigarette the other night!! and double . DP had bought some and I was seeing them on the patio all day on Monday. I rationalised it that I wasn't breaking my rules (DP and I used to always share) so I wasn't bludging and wasn't buying. Regretted it almost immediately and then proceeded to feel amazingly awfully unwell. Very very ordinary and it was a whole body evil feeling that hung around for a while. I almost didn't eat dinner but in the end that is what helped me feel better I think. Feel very stupid but I also feel glad I had such a negative adverse reaction (which I've never had before btw) because I don't care what context smoking happens in now, I am not in a hurry to repeat that experience!