Really feel like writing tonight - I've been reading on the different forums when I've felt up to it but I'm only now starting to feel back in the swing again. I cannot wait for another week until this swallowing razor blades feeling is GONE! Hopefully my health will be a whole lot better for the rest of the year (and the rest of my life - touch wood)
Re the perfect image with white picket fences etc - yes I also fell for that daydream - it sort of worked up until the having children part, oh, and the having my own house part, and being financially secure etc etc. Spent some time of this recovery trying to convince myself that I was being ridiculous and could survive without children (arguments including: the cost, the affect it would have on my life and my relationship etc) - but it didn't work. I'm not ready to give up on that dream yet.
I am also waiting for the raised eyebrows when I finally fall (if I do). Most people are aware of our problems, an after effect of our decision to be open with everyone in our lives. I got on this bandwagon once I read the material about keeping secrets - and DH agreed with me. I'm glad we did it, but its amazing how many people have disappeared that once were friends. And my IL are missing in action (funnily enough I care more about this than DH does) and they're the ones I'm expecting the most comments from.
Anyway, this is too far in the future. Let's see if we get past the next gate of group counselling and getting our SD's results (which I'll pursue once I'm better from this).
Lulu - that's brilliant news about 10 weeks - I hope everything goes amazingly well!
Marg - you go girl! People who think that traditional relationships work for everyone need to have their heads read AND mind their own business about people going it alone. Babydust to you!!
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