Mel big big hugs my girl! Everyone has given such good advice and I know from our little group in particular that we value you as an integral part of our lovebiatchhelpadvicefriend circle...I remember back to when you messaged us and said you knew you didnt fit in as well etc etc and we all went "wtf?" that is what you thought and we PROVED YOU TOTALLY WRONG!!!..

I dont want to hijac your thread but I need to tell you this story so you understand that I do know a bit how you are feeling, not exactly buuutt...
I have the same but with my mum who calls herself "finished with being a parent" that was years ago and our relationship does not exist and we do not acknowledge each other as relatives at all now. From me that is out of protection as I ws beating myself up about why she didnt have a maternal feeling in her body about me.... I used to go to the park and cry and cry and cry and wonder who would ever love me. Then I slept with how many men to try and find someone who would love me forever...never found it until I actually stopped doing that but not before making myself miserable in the process and earning a saucy rep I do blame both my parents for their lack of common normal values as I think they were so selfish in every way throughout both my sisters and my life that we both suffered. She is now a hermit type person with a lot of emotional issues and I am apparently the srong one... Haha it is all a result of throwing away the self worth and trying to make good choices I could be proud of... In essence not being like them.

You are a great mummy and Im sure your dh would say a fabbo wife and Im sure you are working hard to not repeat the cycle that has made you so unhappy. That in itself is the way to get it back in my opinion and girl, you just have to have the faith in yourself that you deserve to feel happy and loved and have good friends.

I hope that made sense. If you feel like talking you know where I am and a whole heap of other ladies who love you..One of which today yo offered your number to because she is having a bad day...UUUMMMMM Nice friend alert!!!

xxx luv ya x