I must admit I am a great one at procrastination (what to you think I am doing now ) hmm disengagement, certainly food for thought. I suppose yes I do feel disengaged, in fact most of my life I have felt disengaged, but that is due to me not being the type to always fit in. I have found when I have been part of a group that I feel like I belong to that I am hugely motivated to get things done, especially in relation to that group.

So yes at the moment I am feeling very disengaged from my life as a SAHM, my life as a wife, I am still building connections with friendships down here, but the situation is much better than the one I left behind. For me I suppose it is that real negative feeling of just not mattering and that extends to things that I do. The funny thing is when I find myself riled up about something I find myself suddenly tackling those tasks that I have been avoiding, the washing will be folded, kitchen drawer tidied etc Maybe me feeling riled, is making me feel engaged with something?

Also I know part of it for me is the repetiveness of it all! Everyday unload the dishwasher, hang out the washing, tidy etc. It is boring, and the results barely last.

Sorry a bit rambling, just letting the thoughts flow.