Thanks Lu, I think you're right because I feel good if I make a decision that I will NOT do something, I feel great...then someone asks me to do it and I go "ok" and it all goes to ****. But I know that if I didn't say ok, then I would feel even better. Infact I did something like that yesterday and I did feel better

You're also right about the underpressure thing. It's why I don't make lunches until the morning then in the morning I get in the zone and do it quickly BUT it would make the mornings a lot less stressfull if I did do it the night before...but I don't.

Same with the house work. It's currently trashed Even down to sticky marks on the floor...it needs to be done, but i'll always leave it till it gets to this point and then do a massive clean....and then say i'm going to keep it up...but never do.

Think i'm going to go inside myslef a bit...just chill out and reflect and have some "me" time...I tend to hate being by myself and always try and be busy...think I need some solitude for a while x