I know we have the love. That is something that makes me want another baby... I looked at our beautiful, happy, well loved little ones and I want to add more children to that.

But do I have the sanity? The ability? My eldest is easier now than he was when my youngest was a baby. But he's still not easy. I had to carry him from the car to the house yesterday in a major meltdown. That's why I didn't even get out of the house last baby. Not enough hands to safely manage a little bubba and kicking, screaming child. Our youngest is almost easier than our eldest now so I'm wondering if perhaps he's at least "easy" then maybe I could do it. But I do get nervous about PND due to the stress. It seems like a lot of pressure to put ourselves under as a family. Perhaps I'm best to devote my energy and resources to the children I have?