When I left XH, I really really really wanted another child. Mine were 3.4 and 12 months at the time.

Now, just over 2 years later, I don't REALLY know that I want more. It's been such a struggle on my own. Sure I've had my parents to help out, but life has been REALLY DIFFICULT and I don't think I could manage with three.

Sure, if I had a super partner, it would definitely be something I'd consider. But it's not the be-all-and-end-all, like it was two years ago. If I found a partner even 12 months ago who didn't want more kids, I probably wouldn't have considered him. Now I would. I'm just at a different life stage.

It's not that I don't want any more, it's just that I'm okay with not having any more. I don't know if I've explained that right... but it's the best way I can describe.

It's different for everyone- do what's right for YOU and your family! Hugs.