Ryn, I think you sound like the perfect person for a homebirth. I guess the biggest problem for you is where you are going to be living. If you knew for sure then you could go about finding a midwife who you are completely comfortable with. OR, you could always freebirth.... But that's a whole other thing. My midwife I had for Tehya's birth was fantastic, she never once did anything or even suggested anything that I didn't want to do. Of course you can catch your baby. I caught mine

DF on the other hand was completely useless. He wasn't into the whole "Homebirth" thing and spent most of the night asleep or laying on the lounge. I could've easily done it without him there. Anyway, I'm sure that your DH does want to be there and would be gutted for you not to have him. Maybe you can talk over your fears with him, get him 100% behind you and know that he won't give in when you need him to be strong.

Not sure if anything I have said makes much difference or not. Just wanted you to know that I understand your fears. They are valid, and hey if we were alittle irrational at times we wouldn't be women