Hi everyone, I stuck my head in late last year, and sadly ended in miscarriage. But here I am again, almost 9 weeks pregnant, due in October (hot1 can you update me please!) I have not really wanted to ring the Dr or midwives yet, I have really for the first time ever not wanted to tell anyone about the baby, I keep waiting for it to change and slowly slowly something is starting to shift. We told the big sisters on the weekend and their joy filled me with much hope. I have contacted the homebirth midwife and she was very supportive, booked me in for the month I needed but said call back when I am 'ready' to start seeing her.

I guess by coming in here to say hello again, I am taking another step in believing that things will be different this time. I have certainly learnt alot about myself over the last few months, and I had an experience of miscarriage that was quite beautiful in it's own way. With my family at home, no intervention, so blessed really!

Hope you are all keeping well, I will come back and catch up on the threads later today....

x