Oh Melster that sounds really tough, I completely understand we're you're coming from. Especially about the ex controlling your lives and what happens. I know in our situation it's never about the kids best interests it's always about her having control over us. I used to get so annoyed with her but now I just try to let it be water off a ducks back. There's nothing I can do, so I try not to give her my time and effort. I know that's easier said than done - especially in you situation, but hun you need to put yourself and your bub-to-be first. Have you spoken to your DH about how you feel? Often they really don't see things from our perspectives and it takes a mini breakdown for them to see they have a family here too kwim? Last time I was at breaking point I wrote my DH a letter. I found I was able to get what I wanted to across without all the emotion interfering and DH missing the point. It worked wonders, and things have been really good ever since.

hun, I really hope things improve for you xx