I say you go for it Elli!
I have four gorgeous children. After our first was born I always knew I would have at least 1 more but I found mothering my first daughter quite difficult. I am a nurse - I like order and she came with a whirl of things that I couldn't make order out of!!! I went back to work when she was 12 months old and my dh stayed home.

When we had ds 5 years later it was a completely different experience. Maybe age and a learned ability to embrace life a bit more made it a much much more positive experience. It unleashed the Madonna in me and I don't ever wanna stop!!! I love everything about being a mother. I am a SAHM now and I love it. I do some work for a uni from home and even that I resent at times. Mothering a big family has amazing rewards and precious lessons!

We have lost 3 precious souls on our quest to make our family bigger. So many people have told us we're mad: "Big families do without so much". "Don't you want to do things for yourself"? Yet some of those very same people comment at the fun that is in our house and how beaufully they play together. Large families are truly an absolute blessing. People (including the big people) in big families learn acceptance of different personalities, they learn to show love and kindness to a sick sibling, they learn to negotiate. They learn tolerance.

Yep, it's true I can't imagine us boarding a Qantas flight to London any time soon but boy do we have a ball at a beach house for a week or for a week in a city. We don't do without anything much I don't think, but feeling those soft hands on my face or the giggles as they chase each other around the paddock. I am blessed beyond words!!!
I think bigger families need a popularity boost and I am the woman for the job!!!

People have made some pretty hurtful comments about why we would keep trying for number 5. I am gonna keep on going though!!

You keep going too Elli if that is what you want. I guarantee you won't regret it.
I remember when I was pregnant with DD #3 - an old lady asked me how many kids I had and how many I wanted. I told her I wanted 6. She looked at me with a real sadness in her eyes and told me she had wanted 6 too but only had 4. She said "keep going dear until you get your 6th because you can never ever go back and do it". I will always remember those words. How true they are!

Big Hugs