At least my wait is over with AF arriving today...some finality to it all I suppose. Hormones must be returning to normal as the emotional roller coaster is getting a bit easier to ride. Spoke to the nurse today too. She asked if we had thought about our path forward. Said I would prefer to have a chat with the FS about what he thought our options are & what he thought our chances are. If there is something he can suggest to try to try to get us over the line or if he thought our chances are just hopeless. May have to resign myself to the fact that there may not be another blessing in my life......

Still grappling on whether I am going to tell my family. My last loss was the day before my gran died and just wasn't the time to be heaping that on my mum as well & they are coming to visit next week for my DD's 5th birthday. I certainly don't want to spoil my DD's birthday & the visit with her grandparents but not really something I can just discuss on the phone either. It's still so fresh in my head & even just thinking about it still brings me to tears. They have no idea that we have even been trying so whether I should just keep it to ourselves & spare them the pain. Not sure that spreading the misery would actually achieve anything or if my mum would be more hurt for not having told her sooner. Not really a winning situation for anyone.

Sorry for my babble but helps to have it out of my head!

xxx