Geez BecD you've had such a rough trot as well ~ (((GBH))). Im so sorry to hear of your TTC/IVF struggles and stress and also about your cousin. So sad and tragic. I so hear you about getting your life backtogether again and not wanting to go through all the unhappy times. Will be thinking of you and all the best with the adoption etc. Deepest condolences for the loss of your cousin