i know this feeling too- it becomes mechanical and almost not a part of you. it's terrible to not bea able to concieve naturally when some women just do so easily- but you knwo what i did?
i just thought - well this is my lot. it is what God has dealt me with and fthisis what i have to do to have my childen.... then i'll do it. so i gave up worrying about why etc. doesnt mean it hurts less, still hutrst when peole iay they "just fell" but my head is clearer. mind you it took #2 to do that.

big hugs.