Hi all,

I am having a really hard time coping with other people's pgs. To be totally honest I am fed up with smiling and saying 'congratulations, I am so happy for you!', because, I am not at all happy, I am really peed off as it makes me feel so much worse. I know I should be happy, but I am most definately not.

My best friend lives overseas and has just sent an email (a group email), she's 7 months pg and says how she is huge and how she feels really uncomfortable. Now, I am delighted that she is pg, honestly. But I do not need to hear how uncomfortable she is.

A family member is due in a few weeks and I am dreading having to see the baby. She's not a close family member so I am sure I won't have to see her much, but the family gatherings for the new born are going to be excruciating for me. My mother in law showed me an item she had bought for the new baby and I just thought, 'why are you showing me?', I tried as hard as I could not to cry. I am totally devastated that I can't have a baby. The friend that is pg hadn't even met her husband when we started trying, now she's divorced, married, and pg.

Sorry for going on, but I had to get this out. It's eating away at me. I am so fed up with having to be happy for everyone, yet it isn't OK for me to be upset or feel so crap about my problems.

Any advice would be welcomed!