just need a vent!!!! sorry

[mummy2chloe]

OK now i am really worried and confused

yesterdays bloods show that now my levels are not as high as they should be??????

the bloods i had on thursday(day 5 of injections) showed a level 390 in which they were worried cos apparently levels double and therefore they would be around 6000 on monday and if they do egg pick up on the wednesday they would of been 24000 or higher in which she said was getting to high for there liking.

so i went and done bloods yesterday and she rings me just a minute ago and said they came back at 658 ( day 7 of injections) and so i asked her was that ok for levels and she said in a hesitant (sp?) voice that it was ok BUT it could of been a little better


i give up!!!!!! one minute it looks like i am going to well and now i am not going well enough?????? what am i suppose to do. i have so many questions like, why arent my levels doubling like they thought they were going to? and why am i so sore? it hurts to sit, it hurts to lay, it hurts to cough?? so then i think what happends if its a cyst thats causing all the pain, what happends then. I DONT WANT TO DO THIS ANYMORE i am sick of the stress and worrying and trying to analyse(sp?) everything! my god i even suck at doing ivf!

well i have my first ultrasound tomorrow and more bloods so tomorrow will give me some definant answers, plus i get to see the bl*ody fs tomorrow so i will be giving him a piece of my mind!!

right now i just dont know how to feel, i have a million questions and just feel disappointed with my levels and myself!

help me please!!! help me understand what i am doing wrong??? its going to be a very long night tonight, i just wish tomorrow was already here so i can have the ultrasound.