Hey

Sorry inadvance for this i just really dont know what to do, or what to think or even how to feel.

i am on my first round of ivf, the clinic is 170klms away from where i live so they class me as a rural client. well everything so far has been going good up unitl now. i had to have day 5 bloods done yesterday to check to see how my levels are going on the 100iu of puregon, cos i have a history of OHSS so thats why i am on a low dose of puregon and why i have to have the early bloods. anyway got the results back yesterday afternoon and the ivf nurse rang and said they are a bit to high for day 5, so she told me to still have the 100iu's last night cos she couldnt get the fs as he was out of his office, she said that she hopes that the injection of the full 100 shouldnt hopefully make to much of a difference, and then she said that they would call me today after talking to fs about my levels cos they think he will drop it to 75iu. well i called them today after work and she said she STILL couldnt get a hold of fs, she was going to try him later on this arvo so she said i will call you after that. well she rings me at 7.45pm tonight to tell me that she STILL HASNT SPOKEN TO HIM!!!!!!!!!! and that i have to have another full dose of 100iu and she will try to talk to fs tomorrow. plus she wants me to get another blood test tomorrow if i can, but i dont know wether the pathology lab will send them on a saturday being a rural client. and she said if they dont send them then dont worry about getting the bloods done, just wait until we see you monday for you ultrasound.

I am sooooooooooooooo ****ed off at the moment, if i am to high then why then hell am i still injecting 100iu's?????????? if i am to high then why the hell isnt my FS making me feel like i am important enough to actually do something about it??????? i feel soooooooooo angry and lost and frusturated (sp?) and scared and sore and just dont know what to do or how to feel, i know one thing i do feel and that is my fs and the ivf clinic dont give a **** about me!!! there happy they got there $6777.00 last week so now they dont give two hoots about me and now there leaving me hanging, and tell me my levels are too high but yet i am still injecting the same amount, so go figure

so sorry if this dosent make any sense, and sorry for rambling on just got know one else to turn to who would understand what i am talking about.