Ikwym - sometimes it all gets a bit too much. Not knowing what is happening inside your body is a killer and being unable to exert any influence as to the outcome is even worse. I suppose all we can do is hope, pray, do positive visualisations and support each other as much as possible. You are such a fanstastic support to everyone else, just make sure that you let us know when you are struggling so we can lend some back. :hugs: sweety, I really hope that you get a good result this time, although I do understand how as much as you try to stay positive sometimes it's really hard to keep that doubt away. Just know that I and many others here understand how difficult it is and are here for you.