hi ladies

elle - welcome to BB hun, and good luck for your EPU tomorrow

BW - how'd you go with your first big day out? hoping it wasn't too tiring, and that you've managed to get answers from your FS

Sazz - good luck for tomorrow hun - looking forward to hearing how well those little follies are developing

thanks for all your kind words - i agree with so much of what has been said - if it wasn't for BB i don't think i'd have made it through the past couple of months. everyone else here seems to just "get" what i'm feeling, and being able to share what i'm feeling with people who understand has been huge. i think i've grown to know a few people on here really well, so i'm comfy in expressing what i'm feeling - even if it is the bad stuff - so i'm dealing with it so much better, and your support has helped me immensely (and DH - he loves you all to bits!!).

well, the past 24 hours has been very different to what i expected. I honestly thought that the cry i'd had when i first heard cycle was cancelled again was just the start of a massive melt down - but i'm doing surprisingly well. yeah, i'm still upset, but not that "i'm gonna bawl any second" kind of upset (thought i was almost there once today at work!). i took myself off to bed a lot earlier than normal last night, and figured i'd have a really rough night - but by the time DH had his shower, i was out like a light, and didn't stir til his alarm went off this morning - probably the first solid night sleep i've had in weeks. i still feel really flat, but not the way i expected. maybe putting my thoughts into words on here last night helped out more than i thought, cos i'm coping so much better than i expected!

DH has just walked in the door, so i think we're off to see my brother - he's flying back to WA for a month or so tomorrow, so want to say goodbye (plus DH decided we'd have Pizza for dinner since we're going into town - not particulalry good for the diet, but it sounds so damn good!!)