Hi everyone, so many sad posts today....its good we have a place to share our sad thoughts and know that the ppl reading them understand!

Wishes: I hear you hun. Out of my 15 eggs collected it is dissappointing to only end up with 2 frozen blasties, i don't even know what grade mine are - i will have to ask at my next appointment.

Two is such a non-confident number.........what if neither defrost well, or what if both of mine are graded quite low.....i could have another stimulated cycle before the end of this year i guess - before the out of pocket expenses go up?

Hopefully it will only take one, the first one? But then i think whom am i to complain if my first transfer or stim cycle doesn't work? So many ppl have to do heaps more than that before they are successful.

Melttc: i've decided that im keeping whom i tell (about ivf) to quite a low number too atm. Selfishly I'm telling the ppl that i think it will be good for me, for them to know, ie. close fam - so i have there support, a few ppl at work - so i get support there too and then i have bellybelly. I've said to my family members who know that once i've reached the 2nd trimester (if that ever happens) that i don't care who knows about how hard it was for me to conceive or who knows that i conceived via ivf, because i will be so proud, so proud that i had to work so hard, for so long, for something that couldn't be more important in someones life, and i've learnt a lot from this journey already.