Hi All,
Well I'm devastated to say I'm back here in this thread. Got my much awaited BFP last Thursday and I don't need to say how thrilled I was- you all understand. Had some really light bleeding on the weekend and went in on Mon for what I thought would be a BT to reassure me everything was ok. But that wasn't the case. My HCG had dropped very low and I was losing my little one.

After a visit to FS on Tuesday, everything was confirmed and now I am just having blood tests every couple of days to make sure my HCG is going down and when it has reached 3 or under, I know I am out of the danger zone of this being another ectopic pg.

So now I wait..and wait..with a broken heart again. As soon as my HCG is right I'm head on into another cycle. Will be doing HRT again and also prednisone and oestrogen patches. All the big gums are coming out now it seems!! My big concern though is that I only have 2 little embies left and last cycle we had to thaw 4 just to get our 1 little one to implant.

I'm so thankful for the fact that I can get straight back into it. I'd really hate to sit around and think about all this. I know I need time to grieve but for me waiting around would just make me feel like I had no control at all over the situation.

So here I am...in a lot of physical pain today and the pain in my heart is at times overbearing. But I'm doing ok. I have a good support network of people who love and care for me very much and I will get through this. I'm trying to be really positive. I'll know I'll get that BFP again, I just hope it will be really soon.

Sorry for no personals today. I'm going to try and work out where everyone is at and then I'll chat to you all.

Take care everyone
Will chat soon
Bel