Hi ladies. Sorry, I'm a bit out of the loop... There's always so much going on and I find it hard to follow.
Just a quick question: I know it's normal to O late after an IVF cycle, but is it normal to have a shortened LP. I'm only 11dpo but I feel like AF is knocking on the door. I think it's probably just the IVF last cycle messing me up (normally have a 14 day LP), but wanted to see what others think?
wishes - just for the record i feel like that everyday....and then i get on BB and realise there are so many FABULOUS POTENTIAL MOTHERS going through it too. Reality, i wish it was easy for all of us....but since its not i am grateful that these wonderful women on here get me through. Thankyou Ladies!!!!!!
MItf and Loops12 - WHERE ARE YOU??? Hope you are both well.
AFM - I had EPU on Monday (yesterday) and 8 eggs were collected. FS called today to tell me only 4 fertilised. ET is on Saturday if they make it till then....trying to keep optimistic but just starting to get really emotionally tired of hoping.
To any one I've missed SORRY and i hope things are going well for you all too.
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Me 40
right tube removed
DH 42
Good count low motility
TTC #1 for 3 years
1x natural ectopic 2007
IUI #1 18 April 2009
IUI #2 19 May 2009
IVF #1 7 July 2009
wishes - there is nothing wrong with you. What you are feeling are the normal feelings most of us get when we hear the news of the pregnancy of someone close to us when we haven't experienced the same success.
I remember once a colleague of mine (who has been TTC + 18 months and is about to embark on IVF) said upon the birth of her sister's 1st baby that the moment her envy turned to jealousy or spite, that is when she would make contact with a counsellor. IMO it is normal to feel a bit green and to wonder, "Why not me?".
Yesterday I had lunch with 2 friends and their babies. Conversation turned to the topic of our 4 pregnant friends and then my friend said," Oh.. and Jane is pregnant again". Well it was my turn to think, "Hey? No fair!". This is her second pregnancy and her husband chronically abuses marijuana. How is it that a) they can fall pregnant b) have healthy children......
Your husband sounds like a sweetheart and I am glad you have his support so close to hand.
Emerald Star - Hope you aren't in any discomfort after EPU. The way I look at it is - you got eggs out! That's a result - and four have fertilised - another result! Maybe not as good as you had hoped for but it is a result nonetheless. for at least 1 good, strong and resilient emby for you.
Hi to everyone else out there - hope you're all well.
Taurean78 and Daisie - Thankyou for all your well wishes.Taurean78 I am in alittle pain especially when i walk alot. I'm sure it will pass by the time ET comes around.
About friends and pregnancies, i am the only one in my large family, cousins and friends that DOES NOT have any kids......everytime they see me its like" when are you gonna have one"? and they look at me suspiciously, like having conceiving problems is a really bad disease.....not that they know that i am trying IVF and that i do have conceiving problems, but its just awful how they make you think something bad of yourself for not being able to fall pregnant at a drop of a hat...i have only told 2 of my bestest friends and my mum( god bless her ) about IVF and apart from you BB friends, thay will sit and listen to me vent for hours and be so supportive.
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Me 40
right tube removed
DH 42
Good count low motility
TTC #1 for 3 years
1x natural ectopic 2007
IUI #1 18 April 2009
IUI #2 19 May 2009
IVF #1 7 July 2009
Theresp - I'm so sorry for your loss. We are here for you if you need.
Wishes - I can sooo relate to that! DH and I got married 4 1/2 years ago (the first of both our brothers and sisters) and since then both our brothers have married and had not one but TWO children each. They know that we have been TTC since we got married and have been reasonable sensitive, but even so it doesn't help. My SIL fell pg twice by accident, blah blah blah. It is very difficult to watch loved ones go through the pregnancy, but at the end of the day... they're very lucky and it's great for them. One of my girlfriends got pg on her first try one month after stopping OCP and has a DS 3 1/2years old. She knew we wereTTC and has been really supportive and encouraging for the last 4 years. How do you think your friend would react if you told her you are TTC? Incidently another of my girlfriends who has just married last year and is nowhere near thinking about having kids had a really diffierent reaction when I told her we were starting IVF. She forgot we were on Skype and I could see her expression. She cringed and she said she was so sorry for me, not realising that I was really excited that we'd made the decision to go ahead with IVF. She felt really awkward and totally killed our conversation. Telling people is a hard decision to make cos once it's out there you can't take it back. Good luck.
Emeraldstar - I'll be thinking of you this week. Hope all four make it through.
AFM - I start Lucrin injections tomorrow for the first time and am very excited about it. DH is away, so I have to do it all by myself, no back up in case it all goes wrong. Fingers crossed.
Hi ladies
Hope you are all doing well.
Mitf-Hope you are okay?
Theresep-I am really sorry for you. I have been there and I know what an emotional rollercoaster it is. My thoughts are with you, take care
Wishes-I can understand what you are saying and have felt the same many a times.
Since we have been married for 8 years, by now it is common knowledge that we are TTC and it is not happening. I think friends and relatives don't have a clue how to deal with us.Many share their good news as they would with anybody else and even though I feel sad initially I recover soon and be happy for them.But it is those people who try to hide it from me that hurt me a lot.One TTC friend who used to call me everyday and share all trivial information suddenly did'nt know what to do when she got pregnant ,her phone calls became rarer and after a couple of months she called up to say that she had been pregnant for a while and did'nt know about it and came to know only that day and then cut me off until she had her baby. Atleast we have all these wonderful ladies to support us.
Emeraldstar for saturday.
Loops12 how is it going with your injections?
All the best to all the rest of you.
Yes still here - just been a little busy and trying to get on top of everything since I returned home. Unfortunately my treatment has been delayed a week. I am a little peeved but it can't be helped.... just bad timing. We had a few family issues to sort out and had to stay a little longer which meant I missed my BT on Fri. I didn't think it would be a big deal but the clinic didn't want me to start my injections a day late when I returned. I ended up having my BT yesterday and I have down regulated. I have to continue on the synarel this week and will start injections on Friday so I am now looking at EPU on 7th August. I feel like I am sitting in the slow lane and getting no where fast!!
Theresep - sorry to hear about your mc and the delay till you can start again. I hope you are felling better soon and FX that next time will be the one that stays for keeps. x
Wishes - I fell your pain also, it is a common theme for us girls. I am used to being the only childless couple amongst our friends and family and have shed many tears at the news of others BFPs. Not that I am unhappy for them but I just really though I would be having children well before the even started TTC. To be honest I think I am happier when a BFP is achieved by one of my LTTTC buddies. I know they truly understand the longing and heartache that comes with this journey.
Emerald star - glad to hear the EPU went well and hope you are not in too much discomfort. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I really hope you are one of the really lucky 1st timers.
Loops - hope you are doing well.
Daisie - GL with the injections tomorrow. I am sure you will be fine with out DH just keep the goal in sight and think it will bring you one step closer!
Taurean - I hope you and the injections are going well.
Juniper - sorry I can't help with your question but I hope everything is ok.
Vira - thanks for thinking of me. I am so sorry to here about the difficulties you have had recently. I hope you manage to resolve things quickly and get back to where you want to be. Any news on your next steps?
Jasminstar - feeling your frustrations re synarel and working around the FS. While it is not my FS fault - me being 1 day late puts me back a week to fit in with the FS schedule.
Hi to anyone else I have missed. Hope you are keeping well with your journey.
Thanks for the support girls. At least I know that I'm not the only one out there feeling like this. I completely relate to mitf when she said she feels happier for LTTTC girls getting BFP's. Again, I'm not sure if this is a normal feeling, but I just feel that those girls who get pregnant so easily cannot possibly grasp the concept of how lucky they are, simply because it happened so easily for them. And usually, it is those exact same girls where it doesn't even seem to enter their mind that it's not that easy for everyone, and they find it completely acceptable to continually ask you when you're going to have a baby. This seems to be based on the assumption that it was easy for them, so it must be easy for everyone. For us LT'ers, I feel like we appreciate it more, because like anything, if you work so hard for something, you appreciate it more when you get it.
I think one of the things that really bugs the most, is the complete cluelessness of the fertile people who have no idea what we're going through. But how could they? I think you cannot possibly know what us LTTTC'ers are going through, unless you have gone through it yourself. Sometimes I feel like screaming to everyone that yes we are TTC, but no it hasn't happened yet and yes we going through IVF, so just leave us alone and stop asking questions. I'm not sure how I'd feel about telling people what we're going through, because I don't know if I could handle the "pity" looks.
Thanks for listening girls. Sorry, no time for personals, have to get to work.
Daisie - good luck with the injections. I know you'll be fine. I decided to do my own so as not to rely on DH and to prevent the nagging of "When are you coming home to do my shot?". I do it in my stomach (I always knew my fat rolls would come in use one day ). It is an exciting time because things are finally happening.
Mitf - good to see you back. I hope things went as well as they possibly could. Sorry to hear that they have put you a week back - that's so irritating when you have things planned in your head to be happening at a certain time but unfortunately is the nature of the beast. In good news, we start our FSH on the same day so will be going down the same path at the same time.
ATM - I went for the first BT this morning and to pick up Puregon & Trigger inj. Just had a call back from the nurses to say that it's all looking good and provided AF comes by Fri, I can start my FSH injections then too. Another small bit of progress
I am in my last week of school hols now so must warn that by next week my posts will cut back a bit. The support I am getting from this website is amazing and I really feel part of a community (albeit a faceless one!).
I was sitting in the clinic this morning wondering if any of the women there were LT'ers form BB.... Something to keep the mind occupied when you're waiting around
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ET is on Saturday if they make it till then....trying to keep optimistic but just starting to get really emotionally tired of hoping.
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