DJTTC - I am so sorry to hear about your cousin. Almost 2 years ago my DH lost his cousin in a car accident and I was the one that had to call and give him the terrible news. It is just terrible and now each time he travels or any thing I am very protective and call all the time. It is a terrible experience, last month in Canberra a memoral was erricted for families who have lost loved ones in motor vehicle accidents and that brought back alot of emotions, but also nice to know they are remembered. My thoughts are with you and your family during this hard time, however hard it is now, it does get a little better with each day, you never forget but you do start to remember the good things and the tears don't seem to fall as often, but it is just a terrible experience. Please try and be strong and know we are all hear for you anytime.

nic - TTC is always hard but it is even harder when other things seem to come around that time which is normally the right time to try. It is true you can never win!! All the best and I hope all works out for you both and you just never know what might happen over the xmas break. I have a friend who has been TTC for about 4 years and her DH is a police officer and trying to work out timing with his shift work was challenging, but they had a break over christmas and relaxed a little and then before you knew it they conceived naturally with twins, mind you they also tried IVF for about 3 years as Drs told them that it was be almost impossible for them to concieve naturally and look what happen. So it does happen, you just have to stay positive and you just never know when the timing will be right. Lots of baby dust and sticky vibes for you!

Megan - All the best with you next cycle, fingers crossed for a natural BFP, that would be so great to see those two lines pop up on a HPT, and even better if you didn't have to do a FET. Fingers Crossed and I hope you get that natural BFP