LT TTC after Miscarriage or Loss #4

[Alice]

All the best of luck to you Luna, enjoy your pg and hope to see you in the PAML thread.

I've only just had the transfer on Monday so too soon for testing - my official bt isn't until 15th Oct (next Friday). Feeling perverse already about it - don't want to go. I think this time I will do a HPT (first time ever). All you POASers have had an influence on me...think I'll hunt down these First Response sticks you all talk about and then DH and I can be together for that private moment instead of having the news come to us through the nurses and FS. If it's good news I'll go for test. If not, I'm getting my haircut that morning then I might have a go at that lemon vodka recipe I keep thinking about (kidding)(sort of).

Still not sleeping...was sure I would get a good night last night 'cause I was so tired but no, got up to pee three twice and just felt restless. Worrying that this is not going to help with the implantation but hey I'm sure I'll find other things to worry about during the day too! It's only day 2 and I'm already going crazy!!

[Porsche]

Just poping in to wish Ferrals all the best today.

[Saffy]

Oh Babe- I'm sure I would be exactly the same- you have worked so long and hard for this and invested so much effort its normal that its culminating in the most stressful ever!

sending the most sticky in the world ( one for each embie!)

How can we get you to sleep? Have you tried the usual-glass of warm milk? Theres not much else non pharmacuetical is there? What about some more acupuncture sessions? Or essential oils? Or getting on the computer and reading bellybelly all night lol?

Anyway we are here for all the way and for you day by day

[Alice]

Thanks Saffy!! xx I will try the warm milk and essential oils tonight. I'm staying the night with my godson (his mum is overseas) so looking forward to some little person time and hopefully we will wear each other out and both sleep well! I just came back from a walk so feel a bit more relaxed. That's one of the nice things about living in the mountains, when it is misty like today it is so beautiful and calming. I've made a cake to take for my visit and now I think it might be time for a Nana nap (just a short one though - don't want to sleep too long)! Thanks for letting me go crazy xx

Ferrals, thinking of you x

[Alice]

sorry for all this me posting while we're waiting to hear from Ferrals but

WE GOT AN EMBIE TO FREEZE!!!!!!

I just got a call and it is also an expanding blastie so good grade and the embryologist also said my P4 was on the high side and E2 dropping nicely so I should stop worrying and be happy. xx

[Saffy]

Wow I think we have some good karma going on in here at the moment, hopefully it extends to Ferals and her scan today!!

Alice-that is brilliant news , that means the twins will have a little brother or sister lol

Me- Found out today that we only have to pay a few $100 for the next cycle cos we get the rest back from our last cycle. Next month it changes somehow and we wouldn't have got as much so for getting into this next cycle!!

[T-hopes]

Alice - Yay to the frostie!! Youve done so well!! Take Saffys advice and have the warm milk b4 bed! And look out for your 'sleep window!!' Its the key for me getting a good nights sleep! remember i couldnt sleep a few weeks back?? i tossed and turned ALL night long, drove me batty! It was 4-9DPO for me and i got my BFP, maybe its a good sign

[craftymummy9]

Thanks so much for your support it means so much, I know I should be better able to cope with getting a BFN should be used to it by now ! and I know at my age its going to take some time its just so intense when your TWW is nearly over ! Anyhow I feel abit better today not such a black cloud hanging over me still no AF so when she desides to turn up I will be happy !

Ferrals hope your scan is well and truely over now and with excellent results can't wait to read later on the good news !

Sunbeam way too early for testing so your not out yet be patient !!!

Alice think positive you know your embies are there inside you you just need them to burrow in I am sure you will be fine try to take your mind off the stress you are causing yourself and relax its out of your hands now whatever will be will be !!!

Luna thanks for thinking of me its been 15mnths now since my mc and I do struggle with
it still only because I was stupid enough to think I would get a BFP real soon after it happened and now I am thinking maybe never again I feel so stupid for thinking it would be easy !!! But you can be sure I will be trying again and trying not to let it rule my life so much !!!

Matthews mum how you doing did you test yet ??? you been here in this boat longer than me its real tough at times isn't it !

Indias mum I know I should be greatful for the kids I have and you can be assured that I am its just the loss from last year was after 12 wks so I guess it was a real shock to the system as before the 12 wks I would have expected it !! anyhow I can assure you having lots of other kids doesn't make the pain any less, and I have 6 yrs between my first 2 and they have always been very close the age difference really is not an issue so try to relax on that front !!!

Everyone else thanks for being patient with me I am a silly old fool at times !!! don't tell everyone I just admitted that !!!

[possum magic]

Alice: Yay on the snowbub! Broken sleep has always been a pg symptom for me, esp early pg. Hope it means something good for you too (not just stress!)

T-Hopes: how're you incubating? (I mean how are you?!!!)

India's mum: glad your dog is better. My parents' old dog was very ill and seemed on the verge of needing to 'go to the vets' but he rallied and had another few good weeks before we said goodbye. Hope your doggie gets a little more quality time too.

Saffy: good news on the $$ for the next cycle. Thanks for the good wishes.

Luna: Best wishes. See you in the PAML thread!

Hi everyone else!

[India's Mum]

Alice - Wonderful news! You deserve some good things after your shocking week. Sleeplessness is one of my biggest pregnancy symptoms so maybe that's why you are not sleeping so well. I have often ended up in a bath at one in the morning trying to relax

Crafty - good to see you are feeling better. I didn't mean to insinuate that having more kids made the pain any less as I'm well aware it's not. I just didn't want you to look back on your childbearing years and remember this past year and it's heartbreak more than the earlier years and their joy. I fully understand about the shock of losing one around 12 weeks because I've been there 3 times now. You really think it's going to make it when you get that far.

Ferrals - waiting to hear your good news!

[Sunbeam]

Alice - Whoo so happy you got a snowbub too Glad the sight was useful. The TWW is agonising but I seem to have figured that the symproms start later with IVF so try and stay calm, hard I know especially when you are not sleeping well. Pleeeease can I have your cake recipe . Have fun with your godson.

T- Hope- That is great numbers fo this early, awesome news.

Crafty - Glad to see you are feeling abit more positive.

Saffy - Awesome news that you can start your cycle soon. What meds are they giving you?

India'smum - It is so hard to focus on weight loss when so much of our focus is on TTC. I managed to drop 3kg since my last m/c. My FS said you are more likely to conceive if your body is in a state of weight loss rather than a state of weight gain (seems really illogical to me but that's the facts.) Good luck. So glad your dog has picked up too, I hope she stays well for a long while. My cruise is from Brisbane to Vanuatu and Neumia(?) for a week.

Ferrals- Been thinking about you all day.

AFM- Bit excited to day. My boobs have gone all veiny, I've been crampy and I have been nauseaous on and off all day. Don't want to get my hopes up too much but will test again in the morning

[Mildez]

Alice woohoo on your snow baby and your two little embies on board. Sending you loads of

Sunbeam I have everything crossed for you its a BFP when you test.

possum magic I did get ovary pain both sides although I could tell which ovary the egg came from as that pain would be worse. But they definately both niggled and at times the pain was excrutiating.

Saffy great news your next cycle is so affordable.

toomanyshoes thats a shame you can't share your jouney with your mum. I guess if she wont be helpful best she doesn't know until bub is on his/her way. FX that is soon.

to everyone I have missed.

Well I am still thinking of you all and praying with all I have you all about to get your sticky BFP's. Still keeping a low profile.

[Sunbeam]

Possum Magic - I rarely used to get O pains at all till all of this. I sometimes get it one side and sometimes both. I think sometimes it can mean that both ovaries will O but generally follicles develop on both ovaries and then one becomes dominant and the others decrease again so you may just be feeling the follicles developing or deminishing. A thin lining will affect implantation. If you are worried about your lining then you might want to think about doing IUI to concieve as this is something they monitor regularly . Chinese medice/ acupuncture is another option as they focus very much on blood/circulation/cleansing etc

Alice - I am not on Clexane only low dose asprin. Is is for blood thining?

AFM - Got another BFN this morning so I'm out of the running . Not doing anything till next month now as I'm away at the end of this month. I'm okay now but was pretty upset this morning and having very negative thoughts about never having a child. If Donor daddy agrees we wll do another stim cycle in Nov. and if this does not work we will then use up our frozen bubs. It is so scary getting this close to the end of the road and really having to accept that it may never happen!