LT TTC after Miscarriage or Loss #4

[craftymummy9]

Congrats Alice FX for you hope the TWW goes by quickly !!!

[Sunbeam]

Luna - Congratuations I hope you are able to find some peace and relaxation and not stress too much.

Alice - Well done my sweet that is excellent. We are both PUPO I hope the TWW is not too agonising. I did not get an E2 level after but I did wonder what it would be with my OHSS. Oooh twins that would be soooo exciting!!

Crafty - It is so hard to know when to stop but I think we all need to draw a line in the sand some where. I have this cycle and one more stim cycle and then whatever frosties we have and then that's it for me. I'd probably find it impossible to quit but I know Donor daddy does not have much left in him. It is so hard to think there is actually an end to the raod.

Possum - If you feel waiting is the right thing to do then you should but I would not worry about it because of telling your boss. If you are not feeling ready or want to selttle into your job a while then it might be a good idea.

India'smum - I understand about wanting to give your daughter a sibling. I want 2 but only because I loved having a brother to grow up with but I'm not sure I could go through all this a second time.

Damprye - I'm gald to hear things are working out between you and DP.

Porsche - 10 weeks whooo! I hope you can settle down and stress less now you have seen your little person growing strong

Ferrals- My sweet there is nothing more I can say that I have not. Please just know that you are in my thoughts and we will all be breathing a HUGE sigh of relief with you when you finally find out your bub is beautifullly healthy.

AFM - Another BFN this morning but still have hope. I am actually fine either way at the moment though of course a BFP will be awesome. I go on my cruise in 2 1/2 weeks and would then come back with a week till I started another stim. cycle. We need to get it in before the end of the year so we get the most back from Medicare then we can use our frosties next year if need be as FET cycles are within our budget.

[Sunbeam]

Anyone doing IVF might like fertilitycommunity, I love it. It has helped me stress less about having no symptoms and I don't think I'd stress about a low beta either after seeing the very low numbers on this site that have lead to healthy bubs. Enjoy.

[T-hopes]

hi ladies!

alice - yay for the 2ww!! i have everything crossed and sendy sticky vibes!! xx
sunbeam - sorry to hear bfn, but like u said, your still in it! great that you have the cruise to look forward to, a nice happy focus!
crafty - im so sad to see you so down, i wish things were easier for you, take some time out so find yourself again, we are all here when your ready xx

thanks again for all the congrats! you girls are so wonderful to me!!

Just letting you know that had my BT today and hcg is 267 and im 15dpiui! the nurse said that was a very high and a excellent result so were delighted! she said no need for a follow up and have my 6wk scan on thurs 18 oct so not too far away!

Sorry for everyone i missed but im at work so its just a quick sneaky post! will be back later to catch up on everthing! xx

[ferrals5]

T-Hopes-great number and not long for your 6 week scan on the 18th i will be having my morphology scan to check bub at the fetal medicine unit so i will be thinking of you.

Sunbeam-thanks hun i hope you will hear my sigh of relief tomorrow from where you are.
Dont worry about the BFN just yet there is still time for that second line to show up.

Carfty-thinking of you.

Alice-I'm still excited for you.

AFM-DH and i are having a nice quiet night alone to get our heads around tomorrow and try not to worry this is so nerve racking we are so in love with this baby already DH kisses my belly every night when he gets home and says how's bubby.
I just want to thank you all for your support and i hope tomorrow afternoon i can give you all some good news .
Love FerralsXXXXX

[Alice]

Thanks Sunbeam - the first one I read was around my age, been trying for 8 years, had endo like me, had 5 embies transferred (!!!) and is pg with twins. Made me smile. Amazing how few symptoms most of them felt and thinking back to last year the main thing I had was, apart from no bleeding, a weird taste in my mouth about four or five days before the test, full-on AF cramps the day before and day of test, and incredibly sensitive nipples. Don't remember anything else. Everytime I do this I think I should keep a diary...What day is your test again?

[Saffy]

Good on you ferals, you are in a great head space, I wish you all the best for tomorrow, it will be hard to get through but we are all thinking of you and your DH and your little baby xxx

Alice- I had my consult over the phone with my FS and I think I recall him mentioning E2 was 3000? I just have that number in my head, not sure if it is accurate but he said that was a good number, not sure about the P4, I should ask these things I suppose!
How is PUPO going?? It is hard to sleep when anxious, sooo annoying xx

Sunbeam- great thanks for that site I will refer to it, glad it has made you ok with no symptoms. Before I was obsessed with TTC it would never have occured to me that there would be any symptoms to notice until way after AF was due, now we are so conscious of every little twinge lol!

THopes- on great numbers-nice little snuggly embie happening there by the looks! xx

Craftymummy- hope you are feeling ok today sweetness xx

Possummagic-nice to see you again- just pop in when you can, there is no pressure, you obviously have a life unlike me lol! How is your new job? Taking a few months off will be no drama I am sure, and takes the pressure off a bit!! x

Damprye- nice to get a catch up from you, I hope things continue to get better for you and DH and your family xx

AFM-very as FS nurse rang today and I am cycling at the end of this month, going in tomorrow to pick up meds, transfer week will be first week of Nov, now i better get strict on my diet etc as I have been a slackarse and had drinks over the weekend and a full strength coffee today

[Alice]

Thanks Crafty, Ferrals and T-hopes xxoo

And T-hopes, great levels babe!! Well done!!!

Saffy, that's GREAT news about your cycle (we posted at the same time)! Bring on November and a super happy end to the year for you! Don't beat yourself up about one coffee or a few drinks on the weekend - my stand-in acupuncturist said to use the 80/20 rule (be good during the week, relax on the weekends - you're only human!). I liked her attitude, especially as I have devised a kick-arse cake that is dairy and wheat free. Now I'm just working on getting the sugar down. So in our house, Saturday is now cake day!

PS Oh and thanks for mentioning the level, I'm a bit worried my E2 is a tad low...this is the first time I've ever asked about levels and I don't know that it helps, it's not like you can change anything so I wouldn't worry about asking probably just gives you more to worry about!!

[India's Mum]

Alice - I hope these next two weeks pass quickly for you and I can't wait to hear your announcement.

Sunbeam - You just amaze me with your resilience and positive attitude. Surely another BFP is only just around the corner. Where is your cruise to?

Crafty - I am not sure what frame of mind you are in today. It seems a real shame to end your wonderful run this way. You have had an amazing number of years with conceiving and having beautiful healthy bubs but your focus this past year has been on your failure to conceive. If this were a movie I would be standing up and doing the slow clap as you walk away because I think you should be acknowledging your successes and not your failures. I am so envious of you and your lovely big family and your supportive husband. I hope that if you do give up that you find peace with that decision. Either way, we are still here to support you.

T-hopes - your news just gets better and better. Let us know about the scan at 6 weeks so we can feel part of the pregnancy too.

AFM - Trying to focus again on dropping some weight. The closer to a healthy BMI, the easier it will be to conceive next month. Incidentally, my dog seems to be doing a lot better, she is able to go to the toilet again and is sleeping through the night so maybe we will get a little more time with her.

[Luna]

Hi friends, thanks for all the congrats, you really are a great bunch of ladies

Crafty - I just want to give you a hug, I know how you feel, it takes over your life, doesn't it? I had very similar feelings of sadness and despair and I talked to my doctor and she thought it may be depression, because it is normal to feel sad after M/C but not for 8 months. And MC, beeing a major traumatic event, can certainly cause depression. I wonder if maybe you are in the same black hole. I did not want any drugs, so my doctor recommended holy basil. It is an herb that can relieve stress and improve your mood.

Damprye - I see TTC is driving you nuts too. I think you are doing the right thing taking a step back. Enjoy your DP and your kids. We get so obsessed with the family and life we are trying to have that we get disconnected from the family we have and the real life just runs by. Who knows what may happen in the future, you may decide you are in a better place and ready for another child.

India's Mum - glad to hear your dog is better.

Alice - for some people insomnia is a symptom, when are you testing?

Sunbeam - I had no symptoms this time until after the BFP at 15 DPO at least. I am glad you have something nice planned too look forward too and take your mind off things for a bit. Where is the cruise?

Saffy - glad to see you putting your plan to work already.

Ferrals - keeping fingers crossed for your scan today, I have a good feeling about it

Hugs to everybody I missed and I will be waiting for you in the PAML thread.

[Alice]

All the best of luck to you Luna, enjoy your pg and hope to see you in the PAML thread.

I've only just had the transfer on Monday so too soon for testing - my official bt isn't until 15th Oct (next Friday). Feeling perverse already about it - don't want to go. I think this time I will do a HPT (first time ever). All you POASers have had an influence on me...think I'll hunt down these First Response sticks you all talk about and then DH and I can be together for that private moment instead of having the news come to us through the nurses and FS. If it's good news I'll go for test. If not, I'm getting my haircut that morning then I might have a go at that lemon vodka recipe I keep thinking about (kidding)(sort of).

Still not sleeping...was sure I would get a good night last night 'cause I was so tired but no, got up to pee three twice and just felt restless. Worrying that this is not going to help with the implantation but hey I'm sure I'll find other things to worry about during the day too! It's only day 2 and I'm already going crazy!!

[Porsche]

Just poping in to wish Ferrals all the best today.

[Saffy]

Oh Babe- I'm sure I would be exactly the same- you have worked so long and hard for this and invested so much effort its normal that its culminating in the most stressful ever!

sending the most sticky in the world ( one for each embie!)

How can we get you to sleep? Have you tried the usual-glass of warm milk? Theres not much else non pharmacuetical is there? What about some more acupuncture sessions? Or essential oils? Or getting on the computer and reading bellybelly all night lol?

Anyway we are here for all the way and for you day by day

[Alice]

Thanks Saffy!! xx I will try the warm milk and essential oils tonight. I'm staying the night with my godson (his mum is overseas) so looking forward to some little person time and hopefully we will wear each other out and both sleep well! I just came back from a walk so feel a bit more relaxed. That's one of the nice things about living in the mountains, when it is misty like today it is so beautiful and calming. I've made a cake to take for my visit and now I think it might be time for a Nana nap (just a short one though - don't want to sleep too long)! Thanks for letting me go crazy xx

Ferrals, thinking of you x

[Alice]

sorry for all this me posting while we're waiting to hear from Ferrals but

WE GOT AN EMBIE TO FREEZE!!!!!!

I just got a call and it is also an expanding blastie so good grade and the embryologist also said my P4 was on the high side and E2 dropping nicely so I should stop worrying and be happy. xx

[Saffy]

Wow I think we have some good karma going on in here at the moment, hopefully it extends to Ferals and her scan today!!

Alice-that is brilliant news , that means the twins will have a little brother or sister lol

Me- Found out today that we only have to pay a few $100 for the next cycle cos we get the rest back from our last cycle. Next month it changes somehow and we wouldn't have got as much so for getting into this next cycle!!

[T-hopes]

Alice - Yay to the frostie!! Youve done so well!! Take Saffys advice and have the warm milk b4 bed! And look out for your 'sleep window!!' Its the key for me getting a good nights sleep! remember i couldnt sleep a few weeks back?? i tossed and turned ALL night long, drove me batty! It was 4-9DPO for me and i got my BFP, maybe its a good sign

[craftymummy9]

Thanks so much for your support it means so much, I know I should be better able to cope with getting a BFN should be used to it by now ! and I know at my age its going to take some time its just so intense when your TWW is nearly over ! Anyhow I feel abit better today not such a black cloud hanging over me still no AF so when she desides to turn up I will be happy !

Ferrals hope your scan is well and truely over now and with excellent results can't wait to read later on the good news !

Sunbeam way too early for testing so your not out yet be patient !!!

Alice think positive you know your embies are there inside you you just need them to burrow in I am sure you will be fine try to take your mind off the stress you are causing yourself and relax its out of your hands now whatever will be will be !!!

Luna thanks for thinking of me its been 15mnths now since my mc and I do struggle with
it still only because I was stupid enough to think I would get a BFP real soon after it happened and now I am thinking maybe never again I feel so stupid for thinking it would be easy !!! But you can be sure I will be trying again and trying not to let it rule my life so much !!!

Matthews mum how you doing did you test yet ??? you been here in this boat longer than me its real tough at times isn't it !

Indias mum I know I should be greatful for the kids I have and you can be assured that I am its just the loss from last year was after 12 wks so I guess it was a real shock to the system as before the 12 wks I would have expected it !! anyhow I can assure you having lots of other kids doesn't make the pain any less, and I have 6 yrs between my first 2 and they have always been very close the age difference really is not an issue so try to relax on that front !!!

Everyone else thanks for being patient with me I am a silly old fool at times !!! don't tell everyone I just admitted that !!!