Worriwart & Yogi - hey guys. We will all be in here going through cycles together by the looks of it. Fingers crossed it's a nice easy ride.

I got success with a FET in March this year and then lost the heart beat at 10 weeks. It was hard getting scanned from 6 weeks and 8 weeks and seeing the heart blinking on the screen and hearing the sound on the monitor. You start to get attached to it. Then at the 10 week scan there was a flat line and no sound. Hardest day of our lives so far and definitely the hardest part of the journey. My husband didn't even make it out of the hospital without collapsing in tears......Then I had to go through what they call a Suction and Curette a few days later to remove it all. Everything was sent off for chromosome testing, and it came back clear, but they did tell us it was a boy. Yet another hard day hearing that news! We ended up in grief counselling which helped so much. Then a few weeks after that my Dr put me in for another laparoscopy (3 years since last one) and I had extensive Endometriosis, I really didn't think it would come back that badly from 3 years ago. My bladder was covered and both ovaries were fused to my uterus with it etc etc. He had 6 pages full of before and after shots to show me after the surgery (mmm, great). Phew - the last few months have been quite a ride!!!

Here I am 4 weeks on from all of that ready for another stim cycle. I feel like nothing could be worse than all of that. I never thought we would get through it. But we did. This one will be antagonist with ICSI, so hopefully we get more blasties.

You know we all have our own stories and nothing seems as hard as what we go through ourselves. But just when you think you can't carry on anymore and can't face anymore IVF you somehow find that you actually can. And when these babies do come along they will be so precious and so loved they won't know what hit them.

Lori - I'm rooting for ya honey. Someone once said to me "if you really want a baby you will get one, you just have to be prepared to keep on going". I'm starting to understand what that means (almost 4 years on of trying...).

Have a good night everyone. I'm thinking of you all xoxo