I totally agree Ferrals not many of us left in here since last sept when I joined and you been on here before me !!!
Don't seem fair makes you wonder what your doing wrong or rather what they did different to me !

I been trying to stay positive this month but its not working I really feel like every time we DTD its just a waste of time and energy and the Macca well not working for me in the right way lucky for you its working well ! I think my problem is I am trying too hard and I have to stop feeling so hopeless I seriously think I need to forget about being a mum again I can't carry on with my life feeling so damn sad inside and living on hope ! My FS apt is next week and quite frankly I think I am going to cancel as when it comes down to it you need money to get some help and we just don't have enough for IVF we spent over 40,000 dollars in the last 2yrs getting a visa and flights and moving over to Australia to make a new start for our kids and well we managed to get a deposit for the house but thats it now we have a mortgage to pay in a few weeks that I know is more than my rent so really can't see the point in going to the apt knowing I can't take it any further !

Sorry I am so negative its not like me but I feel so defeated !