Well I am here but not my usual happy self to be honest my eyes are so puffy I can hardly see the screen.
Well very nice guy and his female sideline but the news is not what I wanted to hear. Basically he went through the whole process of ageing and the egg difference between a 25yr old and a 45yr old ( as if I didn't know ) He then asked me if I had thousands of dollars I didn't need to spend on getting a 2% chance of getting pregnant
instead of a 1% that I have anyway ! He said a big fat NO to IVF for my age and with me having kids anyway.
He told me I can still get pregnant if I get a good egg but if and when I get one he couldn't tell me he suggested
DH take menevit and draw a line in the sand and not waste anymore money and get used to the fact my body may
not produce a good egg and I may not get pregnant again but its not impossible as I was pregnant last sept.
He offered me counciling as he said my miscarriage has really left a huge whole in my life but there was nothing
he could do to improve what is 45yrs old and its natures way really.
He told me to draw a line in the sand and step over it and embrace my comming years and not be so obsessed
with TTC and if a miracle happens then so be it !!!
I felt like I had just gone though my mc again all the tears and the hurt and realization that this really is it I have to
get to grips with it and accept 1% chance and then 50% to 70% chance of another miscarriage so trying really hard
to get my head around this but failing miserably need more time im afraid,