Good morning everyone and welcome to a new week!


Saph- hope you are enjoying your hols and actually managing to relax a bit and not be too worried about all this

Meredith- glad you have joined in, and it would be great if we all had babies due around March!!

dusty- it is hard to tell any symptoms when in drugs isnt it! I keep wondering what's 'me' and what's the pressaries!

Luckystrike- how are you doing? and how are those dreams going?

as for me...well, I have symptoms, which could all be due to the pressaries and I am getting quite nervous and anxious waiting now. We are still being positive, but every now and then, I panic and feel sick, and think, what if its negative?? I know this is all part of the ride.
DH and I had a lovely weekend together though and talked about the future and our hopes.

Plus, I'm getting pretty annoyed with people and with silly or insensitive comments. Sometimes i feel really angry and want to shout and swear at them "don't you have any idea what this is like?????- don't you realise the amount of treatments and waiting and ups and downs we have been going through?????- DONT TRIVIALISE IT!"
I think it's the off-hand comments, like "oh well, if not this time, you can just try again and maybe the next time- you aren't basing everything on this are you?"

And Last night I was at a dinner with my mum and a few girlfriends and one of our friends popped around who has just had a baby ( I visited her in the hospital and was very happy for her, although a little sad too, and she now has a gorgeous 6 week old girl). Anyway, as new mum's all find, she's been finding it tough going and was tired and a bit ready for outside company and she talked pretty well non-stop about everything, how hard it's been, the lack of sleep, the difficulty breastfeeding, all tied in with the overwhelming unconditional love she feels for her baby etc. She was so full on with talking (obviously desperate for company and a chat) and I had all these mixed emotions bubbling around inside me the whole time. I felt sort of annoyed with her too, which isn't fair I know. I think one aspect of it was "please don't whinge in front of me about the difficulties of having your baby, when at least you have a baby!" (and fell pregnant VERY quickly). And the other was "I am stressed out and waiting and I just can't deal with all this baby talk!" At the end there were a few quick queries as to where I was up to, and I gave very brief answers and that was it.
I am just a tense little thing right now I think!
Sorry ladies, just had to vent this morning.