LTTTC Two Week Wait - May/June 2008

**bellyjiggles** · June 10th, 2008, 07:55 PM

Oh dear .. just saw your posting countryblue.. how heartbraking..

I do feel for you.. look after yourself... its awful to have but doesn't necessarily mean it's over yet.. just makes the rest of the wait that much more tortuous for you.. comfort eat or do whatever you need to to get yourself through it.... take good care of yourself and let us know how you are getting on. massive

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Just noticed yours too RustyBeth.. we're all so desperate to be mums and for those little embryons to stay with us.. I have to say I found the obssessing yesterday very tiring, but helpful in a strange way!!!.. Today I feel a bit calmer, despite the continuing spiral.. and the heat is on as everyone posted recently seems to be right on the edge of those imperative results.. so much stress.. sending calm, calm, calm to everyone... it won't be long now.. rest and calm to all....

**bellyjiggles** · June 10th, 2008, 08:32 PM

oh yes... and as for the dreams.. the strange, weird and distressing.. my last most memorable one was of waking up in bed on my front lawn!..

I wondered how I had got there, whether anyone else was following this new trend, and where all my other 'things' were.. I searched beneath the bed where there were big puddles and in the depths of them were my pda (no not waterproof), house keys, and various other essential pieces of my life. - I think underpinning that one was the 'lost' and 'aloneness' of all this..

...but have had others where giving birth is involved (always tragically) and it can be really hard to shake off the feeling. My daughter within 24hrs of birth, had an apneoa attack and went blue, she was resuscitated and went on to recover from pneumonia, but some of my dreams replay this event.. this is probably all too depressing, and I am sorry and hope anyone that has read this has not taken it to heart too much.. but just trying to show how shocking dreams can be at this stressful time, when we're loaded with hormones and anxiously awaiting a deadline...

I do have some AF type cramping, and bloatedness from time to time, but I think the rest is down to the anxiety/progesterone (headaches, tiredness, muzzy feeling, strange taste in mouth).

Keep marching soldiers!!!!!!....

**Bel** · June 11th, 2008, 12:10 AM

Evening All,
Thanks for all your kind words and support. Well a BT a day earlier today confirmed what I already knew..BFN. Am just so shattered. I really believed this was our time. Everything went so well and our 2 little embies that were transferred were so good. But this is how this TTC goes. Am just sick of getting my heart broken time after time. I was really surprised when 2 nurses at my clinic recommended I see someone else for a 2nd opinion. They too believe that at my age, with the quality of my embies and where I'm at in my TTC journey, I should have been pg by now. So DH and I have an appointment to see a different Dr at my clinic tomorrow who has a lot of success and different approaches to things. I was anxious about doing the wrong thing by my Dr but in the end, I had to realise that this is my treatment and I'm trying desperately to have a baby and it's just not happening with this Dr...and I know I have every right to ask for a 2nd opinion. Both the nurses said if it was them, they would be seeing someone else. So that's where we are at now.

Janie- my BT buddy. I hope tomorrow brings you wonderful news. I know the day will drag on so keep busy

Karly- See what I mean about the dreaded POAS! I will never do them again while in the TWW. They are just so inaccurate. You have such a fantastic attitiude about the journey you are on this week and I know you will do fine waiting for your next BT. I wish you all the very best for the next results.

CountryBlue- I hope so much your bleeding has stopped. I know how terribly frightening it is when you see that blood. It's not always a bad thing though so stay strong.

All my other friends, I haven't forgotton about you. I'll check on you all tomorrow.

Hugs Bel

**bellyjiggles** · June 11th, 2008, 01:20 AM

I have to rush out.. but wanted to just say how very sorry I was to hear your news Bel.. It is sooo heartbraking to have that final confirmation, I hope you and your partner look after each other and take time to cry it out , rest and recover...

It sounds hopeful that you have somewhere to move onto for another time when you're ready tho! .. they obviously dont think there's any reason why you shouldn't have your dream come true, so hang onto that.

**Janie71** · June 11th, 2008, 08:26 AM

Hi Everyone,

Well I've had my BT this morning and should have the results early this afternoon. But I started spotting last night and during the night had old Crinone come out with very old blood (sorry TMI). Its not a proper period as of yet, but the Crinone could be holding it back. So we will see what happens. I guess all we have at the end of the day is hope and as hard as it is to have our dreams shattered we have to hang on to that hope.

Country.Blue, if it helps at all, the nurse this morning said that spotting etc is not always a good indicator of it all being over. She had one lady yesterday that had been spotting for a couple of days and thought it was all over, but she was most definitely pregnant when the results came back. She then had someone else who had not started bleeding at all and her results came back negative. It just shows that all our bodies are different and how important it is to get that blood test done even if you think you are out of the race.

Bel, thanks for your well wishes. Its good to hear that you have got a plan of attack. I really

that the next cycle is the one for you. As hard as it is, hang on to your hope, you will get there.

Bellyjiggles and Rustybeth I have my

and toes crossed for you both for Friday

Karly, let us know how you go today honey. I'll be

that your numbers are going up.

To everyone out there

I am prepared for my results, good or bad I will deal with them and move forward. I am determined to have a child and hope more than anything in the world that this is my time, but if it is not I will learn to accept it and I will try again.

Thank you my friends for all your love and support.

Janie xxx

barney · June 11th, 2008, 08:27 AM

buzzi has left the building ive woken up with af i started to bleed yesterday hoped it was a implantation bleen but no its in full today and im so upset were to go from here can the $$$ keep up with me i dont think so .
i feel so shattered.
BEL hunny i am so sorry for you to hun thinking of you xx