LTTTC Two Week Wait - May/June 2008

**Janie71** · June 10th, 2008, 11:04 AM

Thanks Paula... you are such a sweetheart

I'm trying so hard not to go insane and to be positive, but today is already dragging, so goodness knows what tomorrow will be like waiting on the results!

Janie xxx

Karly · June 10th, 2008, 12:53 PM

Hello All,

Bel...I am so sorry that you started bleeding, Be positive though hun you never know. You helped me stay calm the other day and I ended up with a good result (sort of) so be calm and positive. Its not over til the BT result is in. Good luck hun and i really hope you get a huge suprise with a BFP.

Well ladies....I got a LFP (little fat positive). My level was 24 and they class 20 as pg so I am officially pg but whether it is starting to m/c or its ectopic is not know til tomorrow. Because I had iui they dont know when conception actually took place so it may have been late and they tested to early. So heres hoping that by tomorrow the level will be around 50. Anyway I had dealt with the grief and was ready to get back into it. Now I have to wait til tomorrow. Now I am laughing about the whole thing. i am the most impatient person and to have to wait all this time is just funny now.

Well good luck everyone. I will be checking up on you all and i will post tomorrow to let you know what happens. Im happy either way. If it starts to mc at least i know my body is sort of doing what it has to.

**tippytoes** · June 10th, 2008, 12:56 PM

Goodluck Karly..

The TWW is horrible - it's just going to extend a lil for you! I hope you get some great news 2morrow hun..

Rach xx

**JBM** · June 10th, 2008, 03:24 PM

good luck all.
wishing lots of babydust and stickyvibes for you all in tww
the time just drags on forever whwn u in tww but when your not it goes so fast?
what a pain
janet

**nanananny** · June 10th, 2008, 07:23 PM

Just to let you know that two days before my BT I have just started bleeding

I'd like to hope that it's the egg attaching or something nice, but I'm not holding out much hope

I rang the nurse and she said to still keep up with the crinone and take the blood test of Friday so we'll see what happens.

I've not read much of anyone's posts I'm too much in a state sorry

Take Care everyone xxx

**bellyjiggles** · June 10th, 2008, 07:40 PM

Hi Girls..

Am keeping everything crossed for you Karly.. so rubbish to be mucked about like that but you have still managed to draw a positive from it (isn't it such a relief to know your body CAN do it?).. and hopefully IT HAS!..

Janie - Thanks so much for your welcoming and supportive words.. it really helps to have others hear you.. and good to keep talking through it all!.. Loadsa luck for tomorrow - dont know what time it is with you but wishing you the last bit of sanity left to get you thro tonight - rest and calm to you and energy for the last few hours wait... be thinking of you and hope its a good one

AFM I'm just turning circles dont know which way is up at the moment.. I really dont know what to think!!! aarrgghh!.. so tired, but I think from all the angsting (?).. Read quite a lot of threads on symptoms yesterday, just to top up my levels of obsessing!

Still none the wiser, but I suppose its something to pursue, where elsewhere there is nothing to help. Trying to bolster my PMA as feel now is third time is unlikely to work and praying that little embryon made it this far with me. It really is a miracle that girls do conceive under these stressful conditions! but they do .. and thats what we all have to remember.

Sprinkles of babydust over us all

, Calm and Energy.

Rustybeth · June 10th, 2008, 07:41 PM

My heart is just breaking for so many ladies in here. I Have been trying to stay positive on my journey, but faced with the reality of the statistics (only now the numbers have names on them) I just don't know how I'm going to manage the next few days. I've had no symptoms other than the persistent ache since the EPU. Last night I had the dream where the embryo passed out of me and it was big enough to see with the naked eye and recognizable. I know that's impossible in my sane moments, but it doesn't stop my irrational fears.

I'll say prayers for everyone tonight to be able to find some kind of peace.

Rb

**bellyjiggles** · June 10th, 2008, 07:55 PM

Oh dear .. just saw your posting countryblue.. how heartbraking..

I do feel for you.. look after yourself... its awful to have but doesn't necessarily mean it's over yet.. just makes the rest of the wait that much more tortuous for you.. comfort eat or do whatever you need to to get yourself through it.... take good care of yourself and let us know how you are getting on. massive

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Just noticed yours too RustyBeth.. we're all so desperate to be mums and for those little embryons to stay with us.. I have to say I found the obssessing yesterday very tiring, but helpful in a strange way!!!.. Today I feel a bit calmer, despite the continuing spiral.. and the heat is on as everyone posted recently seems to be right on the edge of those imperative results.. so much stress.. sending calm, calm, calm to everyone... it won't be long now.. rest and calm to all....

**bellyjiggles** · June 10th, 2008, 08:32 PM

oh yes... and as for the dreams.. the strange, weird and distressing.. my last most memorable one was of waking up in bed on my front lawn!..

I wondered how I had got there, whether anyone else was following this new trend, and where all my other 'things' were.. I searched beneath the bed where there were big puddles and in the depths of them were my pda (no not waterproof), house keys, and various other essential pieces of my life. - I think underpinning that one was the 'lost' and 'aloneness' of all this..

...but have had others where giving birth is involved (always tragically) and it can be really hard to shake off the feeling. My daughter within 24hrs of birth, had an apneoa attack and went blue, she was resuscitated and went on to recover from pneumonia, but some of my dreams replay this event.. this is probably all too depressing, and I am sorry and hope anyone that has read this has not taken it to heart too much.. but just trying to show how shocking dreams can be at this stressful time, when we're loaded with hormones and anxiously awaiting a deadline...

I do have some AF type cramping, and bloatedness from time to time, but I think the rest is down to the anxiety/progesterone (headaches, tiredness, muzzy feeling, strange taste in mouth).

Keep marching soldiers!!!!!!....

**Bel** · June 11th, 2008, 12:10 AM

Evening All,
Thanks for all your kind words and support. Well a BT a day earlier today confirmed what I already knew..BFN. Am just so shattered. I really believed this was our time. Everything went so well and our 2 little embies that were transferred were so good. But this is how this TTC goes. Am just sick of getting my heart broken time after time. I was really surprised when 2 nurses at my clinic recommended I see someone else for a 2nd opinion. They too believe that at my age, with the quality of my embies and where I'm at in my TTC journey, I should have been pg by now. So DH and I have an appointment to see a different Dr at my clinic tomorrow who has a lot of success and different approaches to things. I was anxious about doing the wrong thing by my Dr but in the end, I had to realise that this is my treatment and I'm trying desperately to have a baby and it's just not happening with this Dr...and I know I have every right to ask for a 2nd opinion. Both the nurses said if it was them, they would be seeing someone else. So that's where we are at now.

Janie- my BT buddy. I hope tomorrow brings you wonderful news. I know the day will drag on so keep busy

Karly- See what I mean about the dreaded POAS! I will never do them again while in the TWW. They are just so inaccurate. You have such a fantastic attitiude about the journey you are on this week and I know you will do fine waiting for your next BT. I wish you all the very best for the next results.

CountryBlue- I hope so much your bleeding has stopped. I know how terribly frightening it is when you see that blood. It's not always a bad thing though so stay strong.

All my other friends, I haven't forgotton about you. I'll check on you all tomorrow.

Hugs Bel

**bellyjiggles** · June 11th, 2008, 01:20 AM

I have to rush out.. but wanted to just say how very sorry I was to hear your news Bel.. It is sooo heartbraking to have that final confirmation, I hope you and your partner look after each other and take time to cry it out , rest and recover...

It sounds hopeful that you have somewhere to move onto for another time when you're ready tho! .. they obviously dont think there's any reason why you shouldn't have your dream come true, so hang onto that.

**Janie71** · June 11th, 2008, 08:26 AM

Hi Everyone,

Well I've had my BT this morning and should have the results early this afternoon. But I started spotting last night and during the night had old Crinone come out with very old blood (sorry TMI). Its not a proper period as of yet, but the Crinone could be holding it back. So we will see what happens. I guess all we have at the end of the day is hope and as hard as it is to have our dreams shattered we have to hang on to that hope.

Country.Blue, if it helps at all, the nurse this morning said that spotting etc is not always a good indicator of it all being over. She had one lady yesterday that had been spotting for a couple of days and thought it was all over, but she was most definitely pregnant when the results came back. She then had someone else who had not started bleeding at all and her results came back negative. It just shows that all our bodies are different and how important it is to get that blood test done even if you think you are out of the race.

Bel, thanks for your well wishes. Its good to hear that you have got a plan of attack. I really

that the next cycle is the one for you. As hard as it is, hang on to your hope, you will get there.

Bellyjiggles and Rustybeth I have my

and toes crossed for you both for Friday

Karly, let us know how you go today honey. I'll be

that your numbers are going up.

To everyone out there

I am prepared for my results, good or bad I will deal with them and move forward. I am determined to have a child and hope more than anything in the world that this is my time, but if it is not I will learn to accept it and I will try again.

Thank you my friends for all your love and support.

Janie xxx

barney · June 11th, 2008, 08:27 AM

buzzi has left the building ive woken up with af i started to bleed yesterday hoped it was a implantation bleen but no its in full today and im so upset were to go from here can the $$$ keep up with me i dont think so .
i feel so shattered.
BEL hunny i am so sorry for you to hun thinking of you xx

**Janie71** · June 11th, 2008, 08:29 AM

Oh Smithy honey, I just posted at the same time as you. I am so sorry sweet. I am here should you need to talk

Janie xxx

***Paula*** · June 11th, 2008, 09:57 AM

Ohhhh i cant wait to hear your news Janie...

**Janie71** · June 11th, 2008, 10:58 AM

I just wrote a whole message and then lost it! Not a good day for me I am afraid. Just found out it is a

for us this cycle.

I am devastated but trying to hold it together as unfortunately I am at work.

So it is time to grief and then focus on the next step. Fortunately as we have a number of frosties, we can get started on a FET cycle straight away. So just need to wait for AF to show up properly and get in touch with the nurses. After much reading I am going to add in acupuncture this cycle. If anyone knows of a very good IVF acupuncturist in central Melbourne or the South Yarra/Toorak areas, please PM me the details.

My friends I thank you from the bottom of my heart for your support. It has meant more to me than I can put into words.

I

for lots of BFP's in the coming days. I will be lurking and keeping an eye on you all.

Janie xxx

**tippytoes** · June 11th, 2008, 11:10 AM

Smithy, Karly, Coutnry blue and Bel

I am sorry for all of your losses this month. It is such a difficult journey... There is nothing anyone can say to make you feel better.... We have to pick ourlseves up (when we are good and ready and not a moment before) and try again...

Thinking of you...
Rach xx