Hi Gargy,

I know what you mean about Christmas -
We have just finished our 4th sull stim cycle (2nd for this year), and AF arrived Saturday night.
We are going to my inlaws for Christmas this year, where they have family coming from everywhere - there will be 11 women there, 8 of them pregnant and all due between April and June.
The only 3 ladies who aren't expecting are my mother in law, my sister in law (who has just had a baby he's 4 months old) and me.
How depressing
I, too have thought about not going, but I have decided to for a few reasons;
I have come to know that the worst thing about infertility is that when you are down everyone tries to tippy toe around you and avoid talking about anything baby related in order to try and make you feel better - and this is what makes me feel the worst, because then you start to really feel like there IS something wrong with you.
If we don't go, the whole family will treat me like this from now on, which is just too hard to cope with.
I find its easier to just go, and everyone thinks you're fine, and then treats you that way.
If it gets too much, I can always jump in the car and find a place to have some quiet time!
The other reason is because its my family, and they would just be devastated if we weren't there - and I love them all too much to do that to them (and to DH)

Please don't think I'm giving you any advice - I only know what works for me, and I know that sometimes its just too hard.
The last time we got a BFN after our last cycle was the day I had to go to my sister in laws baby shower (for the baby that is now 4 months old)
Sometimes it is just too much, so do what ever gets you through.
Sending you all of the strength to make your decision