HI all

hope your christmas was absolutely fabulous. Mine was pretty good. Had all of my family here, which was great fun, but also a little difficult - had a couple of moments where i just wanted to be by myself and they just didn't seem to get it - i love my brother and his family, but having the kids over christmas morning made it hit home even more how much we are missing having our own baby. Ended up trying to disappear for a while, but couldn't escape - have never been so happy to say goodbye to my rello's so that DH and I could just have some quiet time to ourselves! felt a little selfish, but just couldn't face it all much longer...

ktgirl, so sorry your test didn't go so well this morning. was thinking of you this morning, so popped in to see how things went for you - hopefully the scan tomorrow will bring happier results for you.

chelle. hope christmas without your sister wasn't too hard - i understand how you feel. i only have one brother and have never had a christmas without him and his family around - he was supposed to be over west for christmas this year, but the family all decided we couldn't be apart so pitched in together to get his family back home - don't know how i would have survived without them here!

Pollyanna, glad to see your mum is doing ok. Hopefully it won't take too long for her to make her recovery. Good luck with your blood test on Wednesday

i'm currently in waiting mode - i live a couple of hours out of the city, so have to attend a clinic about an hour or so from home - they're closed until January 17th, so for now i'm just kicking back waiting i guess. trying not to think about things too much - am on day 28 of latest cycle on chlomid 150 - trying to decide whether to do HPT or just wait - so scared of getting yet another BFN that i'm avoiding the inevitable i guess. FS pretty much said he didn't think it would work seeing my hormone levels are so off kilter, but i guess if i do the test and it comes back negative, i know where i'm at - for now i'm still living with a little hope (denial and i have become very good friends through this whole TTC thing!) which we all need at this time of year.