hi willow - sounds like you excited about gong into IVF - i think i'm looking at treatment the same way - we've had basically 23 months of TTC with no answers - and i like the idea of knowing that we're being proactive and taking back control - at least to some degree.

i like the idea of the prefab pergola, but because we were replacing an existing one, the boys just decided to build it themselves - they finished putting the laserlite roofing on today (at last) and it looks awesome - only have to finish painting the outside of the house, all the pickets for the fences, build a shed paint the whole inside of the house... looks like we have enough work to tide us over for a little while...

haivng a bad day today - have been having a few issues at work of late with trying to arrange my hours to acommodate appointments with FS (and dentist -- been having root canal work for almost a year, and probably have to have surgery in april cos it's getting no better - ouch!) - anyway, dropped an extra day off my schedule so i now have one day off per week - and when i discussed with them that i may need to change days for testing and stuff once injections and monitoring start, they've been really rude - got to the point yesterday where i was hauled before three of the managers and they pretty much told me that i either book everything on my scheduled RDO or i dont bother scheduling it (can't half tell it was two guys and a woman who falls pregnant if her partner looks at her) - i hadn't intended telling them about our difficulties TTC, but ended up being forced to tell them to justify why i was thinking i'd need odd times off for treatment (as if you can tell your body that the ideal time to respond to FSH for ovulation induction or IUI is on a wednesday!) - and even after that, they're not prepared to allow me to work additional time to get myself ahead prior to treatment - i'm so damn frustrated! i waslked out of the meeting on the verge of tears and have been feeling the same way ever since. i don't want to eat cos i'm so upset i'm feeling physically ill - and to make it worse, i can feel myself pushing DH away - even when he's trying to comfort me.

so sorry for my ramble guys - was gonna post in boo hoo, then decided it wasn't worth it - but once i started typing here i just kinda couldn't stop! but hey, one good thing, the tears have finally come - time to go hug DH and apologise for being such a cow the past couple of days!