Bummer, BG! It seems that one of the most frustrating things with this whole TTC thing is the way you end up putting things on hold... I'm sticking it out at a school I essentially hate, just so I can be sure that I'll be eligible for maternity leave. I do hope you manage to sort something out, BG, it all just sounds so nasty.

Mako, I cannot recommend that book highly enough! I dug it out of some things I had taken away over Christmas and put in on DH's chair just as I went to bed last night, intending to tell him it was there... but I forgot. I was pleasantly surprised to see DH reading it voluntarily tonight. It's not the kind of book that you read straight through - but just go to the sections you need most at any particular time.

Michelle, sorry for being so caught up in my own stuff... Thanks so much for dropping in. It is great to see you and *alf* still going strong, and I'm feeling so much more positive about things now. You are right, it is a plan, it is moving forwards (even though my brain keeps screaming obscenities at myself for going back on the pill! I understand WHY, but it just feels *so* wrong!), and in many ways, we are probably more in charge of things now than we have been at any stage since my diagnosis back in March.

The new ticker... I'd had that other one for so long, I'm glad to see the end of it! And this way, the specialist appointment just seems so much closer than just thinking the eighth of February. Other funny and peculiar things... my acupuncturist is desperate to get her hands on DH, DH's bowen therapist is desperate to get her hands on me... DH has also made an appointment with the GP to get a referral to a different urologist... There's definitely progress, even if I do feel like I'm going backwards by being on the pill!

BW