Thanks, Deb. I really do appreciate anything you can dig up for me.

Willow, 10DPO can still be a bit too early for a test to show positive... but I do know what you mean - sometimes it's just so hard to believe it will ever happen.

Mako, I'm in a weird mood where looking at all the things I've got going against me is making me laugh, in some weird and twisted way. The situation really isn't as bad as it seems sometimes, and I really hope I haven't put too much of a downer on things. I just feel odd right now.

And I mean really odd! The weird "I'm in so much trouble!" feeling has turned into a barely controlled anxiety attack. I don't know what's triggered it, but I really don't feel good right now - like I need to run away from something, but the stuff I want to run away from is inside me so there's no escape. I hope this will pass soon!

BW