I wonder if the numbness you feel at the moment is a coping mechanism - like a subconscious break from the raw emotions you described...? I think we can only take so much in one hit, and at some point just need to switch off for a bit. It's completely natural and very human. You've been through so much. I think the hope, excitement and frustration will come back when your mind and body is ready for them babe. I agree with Gigi, can you - and do you want to - just take a break?
What keeps me going?
I want to be a mum. I'm going to be a mum. And sugar, and sometimes booze.
What keeps me coming back for more?
See above
How do I 'feel' anything?
Some days I feel, some days I don't. Some days I feel up my husband.
Hugs, hugs, more hugs, and lots of love to you J.
Last edited by buffy1; June 12th, 2011 at 05:55 PM.
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