Yeah I'm doing ok. I called my FS yesterday cause i just needed answers so I can move forward and know for sure. He called back yesterday afternoon and i told him how the hospital had just left me up in arms about the hole thing. So i asked him for a straight out answer that when i go for my 12weeks scan would there be any chance that other baby would be ok and he said no not a chance. So I'm ok with that i just needed to know one way or the other. Its still sad and I will never forget and one day when this baby is older i will have to tell the story. But its something I will hold in my heart forever. You know over the years hearing other people having a m/c I would think to myself thats so sad but they will get over it and be fine, but I didn't think anything else of it. Its not until it happened to you that you really know and understand how it feels. Like I said to DH that he will never feel the pain that a mother does. I have lost one of my special little miracles babies but I'm so thankful that it has happened now and not in 4 or 5 months time. I will love that baby forever and ever but its time to put my energy into the one thats still living and my 5 other children. Boy I can rabble on and i wrote all that without crying cause I know all my babies/kids are safe in my heart no matter where they are.
Take care ladies